And you know what's the worst part? I can't even tell you that how much I miss you.

Missing you

The only option is the right option

I should atleast try. If I do not succeed, I won't be happy and I won't get any satisfaction either. And I would not even not get rid of the guilt. God knows, if he is, that if  this goes wrong, then I am going to blame myself completely for all the wrongs, and would carry this guilt all my life, atleast this life. Hope there is not another life.

The only reason why I should try is because it is the right thing to do.

But may be that is not why I am doing it. I am doing it because I DO NOT HAVE ANY OTHER OPTION.