If I jumped off the roof tonight, would you care? I am not sure if I have the courage, but I've got to try, right?

Its all spoiled the day when you begin to expect from someone.

Until you choose, everything remains possible.

This blog used to be about me. Lately it has been all about you.

Found a few new things. It would have been exciting, if you were with me. Right now, I'm doing it just because I have got nothing else to do. It all would have been so much better with you.

I miss you with every breath i breathe,
I miss you with every tear i weep

6th Nov. 2:27 AM

I am about to commit suicide. I just dont have that much courage. You used to be my courage, now I dont have you. Atleast come back for some time so that I can kill myself.

They say when you are feeling all alone, there are a million other people all around the world who are feeling just like you.

because the heart wants what the heart wants...

Did I write that before?

Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary pronlems.

I've started to get panic attacks now. You know about them right? Google it if you don't. Its not very pretty. But I'm glad. With these signs, I'm sure all this pain is going to end very soon, with me.

How do you even sleep at night after you did all this to me?

I am not dead. But I am not living either.

I hate you B minor

If I burn for you,
I hope you will melt for me

Lately I'm having dreams of you, and food. I don't have either of you with me. :(

Btw, for the record, I miss you more than the food.

Temple run

Every time I play "pani wala game", I miss you.

There is no god up there. Fear makes you a believer.

I want to cry. Cant. Its all dried up. May be thats what they call being "Empty" inside. I would have have written a song on this. But dont feel like it anymore. Like I said, "Empty inside".

Dear God, drop dead.

I am not doing any of this. Its all happening to me.

Ya sure, like you would believe that :D Ofcourse I dream of you, every night. Stupid.

I don't dream about you anymore.

You know, there is a girl, outside. She has the yellow umbrella. Wo "How I met your mother" wala.

The world doesn't end if you close your eyes. Its still there, even though you chose to ignore.

Do you understand what I am saying?

I'm a big fat looser...

...And I'm not even fat.

Being sorry is a far worse punishment than death. Everyone dies. But there are a very few people who really feel sorry for what they have done.

Without you, I am lost.

I am going to be alone all my remaining life.

They say that death by starvation and drowning are the most painful. Drowning is supposed to be better, because one, its over in a flash, and two, you can't stop it.

I am going for the other one. More pain. And because its MY decision.

I always wanted to eat chocolate like this, like they show in ads. But I always ended up eating it in squares.

Miss u. All the time.

I am not ok. Miss you badly. Please come back.

This ain't no place, for the weary kind.

Even I love myself now

Apparently, I do not trust anyone anymore. Thanks to you.

Choices mean sacrifices. A choice means giving up something you want, for something you want more.

You do whats right, and let the pieces fall where they fall.

I made this for you. Wish you  can see it. It flaps the wings too, you know

Caring just makes you week.

I would be ashamed if I ever did anything good in thisnlife. Because you are not with me anymore to see that.

I am not going to change myself for anyone now.

Sometimes I just want to hide you, in my palms, like a little baby sparrow. Hide you from all your worries. Hide you from all your problems. Hide you from all this world. And tell you,"you are safe sweetu"

I don't know how, all the people I want to be with, tend to leave me, after saying "Fuck off" :D All of them, no exceptions.

Tum dimag se nikal hi nahi rahe :'(

I've been loved, and I've been alone,
All my life I've been a rolling stone.
Done eveything that a man can do,
Everything, but get a hold on you.

I just found out that my love is not unique. People have loved just the way I love her. And people have been hurt just the way I have been hurt.

I'm not an idiot. I'm just a dreamer.

When someone leaves you, you just think that you will die without that person.

The good thing is that you don't die.

And the bad thing is that you don't die.

I talk to you every night in dreams. It does not hurt then. It hurts in the morning.

Why did Bryan Adams had to put Bm in Summer of 69!

You killed me.

I am just waiting to die

It would have been much easier for me if I could just lie to you. I am really hungry :-( Do din ho gaye

If I even eat, it feels like cheating. I have stopped eating altogether. Lets see how many days I survive.

How can you leave someone who loves you so much?

Miss you all the time Monu. I can't live like this.

Mad matlab pata hai na?

I cry for you everyday. I might die for you, one day

Miss you pata hai

If I even laugh without you, I feel guilty. I dont know how you found the courage to take this decision.

beforeyousuicide.org

Built it. As promised. Hope it saves me too.

I love you. Always will. Please do something while there is still time.

You know, after some time, tears tend to dry. But the heart keeps in crying.

I would love it if somebody comments once in a while. Just so that I would know that I am not alone.

One of them stays madly in love and the other one suddenly becomes realistic. Thats how all the relationships end.

I'm mad for you. Mad matlab samajhte ho na?????

I can't let you go. Thats the one thing I can't do.

May be you and I meant different things when we said "I love you"

Tum aagey chale gaye. Mai to yahin khada reh gaya.

Yaar ladki to humne pata li thi. Ab humko kya pata tha ki uske baap ko bhi humko hi patana padega.

You very well know that I just want to kill myself now. Its too much pain. I am dying a slow and painful death anyways. I can't eat. Can't sleep. I can't even breathe.

But you should know that the only reason I am staying alive is so that you won't have to live with the burden of my death. I love you too much to put you in such a pain. I choose to burn myself in this pain for the rest of my life.

Please believe me when I say "rest of my life". Don't ever think that I could forget you or get over you. You are not a girl to me. You are my God.

And btw, you know what, you can't suffocate yourself with your own hands. Didn't work.

I just hope that you stop acting foolish and do what is right. Support the right person. Punish the wrong person.

You see, the thing is that I am in love with you. So I will keep you on my mind all the time. For all my life. You are the most important person in my life. More than me. So its just that if you are not living with me, its going to be a lot painful for me.

Whenever someone praises my new shirt, I miss you

There's still time. Save me. Save yourself too. We both know that we can't live without each other. Please. Just one phone to that guy call can solve all our problems.

How the hell could you even think that I would be ok without you? Don't you know me? Don't you know how much I love you? Don't you know how important are you in my life? You ARE my life. Stupid. What have you done...

I miss you. Everysecond. No space.

And if you do too, you very damn well know what to do.

And if you don't know, talk to me. Have faith in me. I can still save both of us. Have faith. Have a little more courage.

Suicide is permanent solution to temporary problems.

Its the first time I am not enjoying the rain. As the time is passing by, I am finding more and more things that I don't enjoy anymore.

But I haven't done anything that will make you ashamed of me.

These nightmares are haunting me. I see you crying in all of them. I'm afraid to go to sleep. I cant see u crying even in my dreams

If I'm dead, how much time would it be before you know about it?

Without you, I am crippled. Tum kyu nahi samajh rahe ho. Please do something.

Happy birthday Mona. Environment day. :-D Lv u. I just hope you are reading this.

I'm burning you know. All the time.

I don't blame you ok. But its impossible for me to accept.

Miss u. Every second.

I'm hurt bad Monu. Can't heal.

So now you say that I am not worthy of you! Well, that is something that I can accept. But I wont accept that you are leaving, and I won't that that your idiot dad played with my life, I won't accept that you chose that shameless person over me. I won't accept it. Not this time.

You did everything for me. Now its my turn. I will never understand why you took this decision. And I will never make peace with it. But I am with you now.

Kitni baar bataya ki how important you are for me. Nahi samajh aaya na tumko. Aur kaise batate :'(

My life has become hell. And I will make sure that it stays that way. But I don't blame you. I love you too much. I trust you. I'm sure that you tried everything to save me. Sorry to say, I can't be saved now. I'm finished. Destructed. Over.

Tumko agar zara sa bhi andaza hota ki mere sath kya hoga to tum aisa nahi karti. You love me too much.

30 May

Abhi bhi kuch nahi bigda hai. Please come back to me.

You know whats good about English songs? You can ignore their lyrics if you don't want the song to hurt you. Not the hindi songs. They hurt bad. You spoiled all my favourite hindi songs. Why did you do it Mini? :-(:'(

These nightmares aren't letting me sleep. Please don't leave me.

30 May 13

There is a happy zone in my brain which has only you. So every time I start to feel happy, I miss you like hell

29th May

You can't fool me dear. You are not happy. Please don't try. It hurts me to see you trying to make me hate you. I cried you know. You know I can never hate you.

For the first time in my life, I realized that its not the money that I need to be happy. Its you. I need you Moni. I need you to be with me to be happy. Nothing else would work.

Its all about the game

I was taking it all wrong. Its not about reaching somewhere. Its the journey that you get to enjoy. Its not about the money, its about how you play the game.

When I'm gone, please remember me as a good person. Who never asked for much. Didn't complain much. Never said that I'm not in mood to talk. Always gave priority to you. Did all he could for you. Appreciate me please, when I'm gone.