I'm feeling suicidal. This is getting too much for me. Its 9 PM here. Its raining out. Rain used to make me feel good. Now it makes me want to kill myself. Its a long night. I hope I survive till morning. I don't want to die. But this rain and night is making me. I'm trying not to think about ways to do it. I'm a pre-crastinator. So if I couldn't plan it, I'm sure I'd survive. Hope this works. Or this could be my last post. You'll know.

This is going to be a long night.